Archive for May, 2006

The misconception about freeing oneself by being oneself

I hear the expression ‘Just be yourself‘ all too often. To me, that friendly and well-intentioned phrase ultimately is nothing more than a harmless no-brainer. Even worse to my ears is the related saying ‘I wasn’t myself‘.

Both phrases are often meant reassuringly; to persuade someone to ‘go with the flow‘ of one’s feelings, to enjoy the moment and refrain from the heavy burden that is thorough thinking.

Both share the concept of someone not being himself. Of a force which influences someone up to the point where one acts differently, and almost becomes another person. Or at least not the normal person.

And thus both suppose the existence of an ideal self. Pure, amiable and without any wrongs.

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I disagree. Humans are complex beings; varying and opposing behaviour is a result of a life which in itself is complex, which demands judgement and action, and which is scattered over different periods during the various stages of one’s self-development.

When someone behaves in a way he deems unusual, out of his normal pattern, he excuses himself by saying he wasn’t himself. Such occurrences happen mostly when someone isn’t content with his actions, and in retrospective wishes for a different outcome. Additionally, achieving the desired result isn’t seen as impossible, but within the realm of one’s normal and self-recognised abilities.

To me, this isn’t true. Man can neither escape nor abandon himself. Blaming something alien for one’s misconduct is no solution. For example, if someone tells a lie and later regrets it, nothing is won by saying one wasn’t himself (eg. because of stress). Instead, I see the behaviour of telling lies under stress as a character trait, even if only applicable to a specific incident.

The denial of it only ignores or neglects a part of oneself. It neither leads to a solution (for which the acknowledgement is an important first step) nor does it help the acceptance needed to come to peace with oneself. Thus such ignorance only leads to frustration and stuckness.

Freeing onself from boundaries (that we all too often impose on ourselves) is something which needs a lot of work, and can only be achieved by openness, understanding and insight. So that one day the old promise of being free and enlightened (English link) can become a reality.

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All Quiet on the Blog Front

A picture is worth a thousand words

While some good thousands words can mean a lot (and fewer words even more), it is true that a good picture or photo can also be very intense. Not just for an artistic value, but as a medium for communicating a story, for explaining the world. Of course, it should be used sensibly (but not necessarily reasonable), and not fall prey to the style over substance dictate. In that regard, an honourable mention for insightful and inspiring photos and reportages certainly goes to Magnum Photos. Some of their exhibitions can be viewed online at Magnum In Motion.

Edward Burtynsky - China Manufacturing #11
(Photo by Edward Burtynsky. Manufacturing #11.
Youngor Textiles, Ningbo, Zhejiang Province, 2005)

Thanks to the blog Bhlogiston (which has been duly added to my linklist), I’ve found these two amazing websites: Brian Ulrich - Not if but when and Edward Burtynsky. They both show sides of today’s consumer world we are not always aware of (as the case with many photos by Edward Burtynsky) or which we neglect, ignore or don’t notice (as the case with many photos by Brian Ulrich). Especially worth viewing is the China Manufacturing series by Edward Burtynsky, from which the above photo is.

Sprache ist eine Waffe

Literally meaning Language is a weapon. This sentence by German writer, satirist and free thinker Kurt Tucholsky highlights the importance and influence of the written (and spoken) word. His books and articles are witty and reavling at the same time, and these words make for a fitting end to this blog entry.

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Sigh, Oh Well, Ha! Haha

Sigh. I’ve come very close to finishing my website. Really close. But then I went on to tweak the navigation of the photo album a little… and alas, the navigation got all messed up. As this week gets more stressful from tomorrow on, this effectively postpones everything for at least one week. Not to mention the loss of motivation. Sigh.

Oh Well. I had to write a composition/paper in my German classes on Saturday. It’s been my first since almost four years. I had a brilliant idea. Or so I like to think; my text is an analysis of Galileo Galilei’s character from Bertold Brecht’s play ‘Life of Galileo‘ when transferred to the world of Friedrich Dürrenmatt’s ‘Der Besuch der alten Dame’ (The Visit). It exposes how Galilei would have behaved in a situation as presented in Dürrenmatt’s play, and how his presence would have influenced the dynamics of the town. Unfortunately, two lessons (à 45 minutes each) weren’t enough to write everything down as planned. Thus I had to kill off some plot ideas and scenes and put the story to an end rather abruptly. Reading through it today (I wrote it on my laptop), I’ve noticed many spelling mistakes, too. I totally forgot my installation of OpenOffice only has an English spell checker. Oh well.

Ha! But since I like the idea so much, I’m going to finish the play (yep, I wrote my paper in the style of a theatrical play) nevertheless, in a version true to my vision of it. Ha!

Haha. Did you know thahahat on Monday was thehehe World Laughter Day? The Wihihipedia has a long entry in German, so I guess the shorter one means the Englisheesh weren’t that amused. I meant to visit the Lachparade (laughter parade) in Zurich and take some pictures, but in the end, soccer with Patrick won. I hope everyone had a funny time nonetheless. Did you smile yesterday? I hohohope so! That said, a) laughing is fun, b) I don’t need a special day to laugh, and c) I find people who laugh permanently for no reason slightly awkwarding. Hahaha.

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My (random) travel between Good and Evil

The Gematriculator is an online tool to “determine how good or evil a web site or a text passage is.” (Quote from the website).

According to the analysis, my blog is 59 % Good, and 41 % Evil. However, it seems the border between Good and Evil is small. Since some of my links are displayed randomly, I wanted to see how this influences my score. It turns out the line is thin indeed. Just because of eleven different links, my result turned to an almost heavenly 73% Good, 27% Evil. Maybe that just means the boring stuff I write myself is so bad and/or - in accordance with the blog title - neutral it is neither Good nor Evil. But I like to think my blog instead transcends such narrow definitions, passes through them, and is unfathomable.

On a funny note, the analysis might still need some work - 666, the number of the Beast, only gets a 50% Evil, 50% Good score. Or does the devil, in a new PR stunt to attract more followers, try to appear less evil? Maybe it is a sign that in today’s sinful world, even evil itself is seen as only 50 % bad?

Or does this mean that good things can come from evil things? Maybe the road to heaven is paved with bad intentions!

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A few short reviews

Paulo Coelho: The Alchemist

Ever since I’ve attended the Open Forum at the World Economic Forum 2005 in Davos, I wanted to read a book by Paulo Coelho (he was a speaker at one of the debates). Now that I finally managed to do so, I can say I’m in no way disappointed. The book The Alchemist has a truly beautiful story. It revolves around Santiago, a shepherd from Spain, who goes on a journey to Egypt in order to find a hidden treasure he has seen in his dreams. On his trip, he has to find peace with himself and the world, and overcome many obstacles. Most of them are self-made, and a challenge to his commitment, belief and will.

However, this book isn’t only about personal fulfilment. It shows a world full of magic and symbolism. Even though I don’t believe in such a world, I was still able to enjoy the book. I don’t believe in fate, but I can agree that one should try to achieve their dreams.

Off-Topic: Fate Vs. Destiny

I draw a distinction between fate and destiny, and I think that’s one of the reasons I liked the book nevertheless. Fate is something which one cannot escape, a story which is already written and which has no alternative turns, and excludes free will. Destiny is more like a goal one can achieve if he decides to take the right steps, and thus does not rule out free will and different outcomes.

As I see it, Paulo Coelho’s idea of a ‘personal legend’ everyone has is more closer to my destiny than to my fate. At any point during the story, Santiago would have been able to give up and return home. But he didn’t choose to do so. Despite this, I do disagree with him on whether one can choose his destiny/personal legend or not. I’ll write more on that in another entry and just leave it at that for the moment.

Off-Topic, continued: The beauty of fate?

Judging from many books and movies on that topic, it appears many people are somewhat drawn to stories of fate. I guess fate adds grandness
and sense to life; fate is an escape from a world which many people perceive as small and cold; fate offers an explanation for the world, and gives everything a greater meaning. Or is it that fate takes away the burden of decision? That it eliminates all the haunting questions about past actions? If fate dictates everything, there can be no mistakes, no false decisions anymore. But is such a world really more beautiful?

Is a story more beautiful when two people come together because it was ‘meant to be’? Or when they choose so? Me, I certainly prefer the second variant. I find it more beautiful if two persons choose to be together, overcome obstacles by their own will, have to fight, and are ready to sacrifice part of themselves for the other person.


Raymond Carver: What We Talk About When We Talk About Love

The book is a collection of short stories, all written by Raymond Carver. His stories are well written, and it clearly shows that the author understands his craft. Unfortunately, he decides to stick to only one kind of people. While this makes his characters authentic and allows for a greater insight into their minds, the novelty of reading about ever so similar people wears out with time. I don’t questions his abilities as a writer and observer, but some diversity would have certainly helped. Because in the end, I can’t connect to all these characters who seem to consist of (*takes deep breath*) midlife crised, screwed-up and sex-obsessed drunkards who all have their hidden dreams and feelings but fail to express them and are now drugged, depressed, screwed-up, drunk or sex-obsessed. There, with this formula you too can construct your own Raymond Carver story!

Note: Reading through the above text again, I feel compelled to stress that I did, in fact, enjoy the book. But it could have been so much better.


Syriana

Syriana is a 2005 movie dealing with the Middle East politics of big oil companies and their influence in US foreign policy. While the story itself is fictional, the plot is based on the book See No Evil by former CIA operative Robert Baer. The movie’s tagline reads ‘Everything is connected’, and it does a fairly good job at showing how even small, local events can have a big influence. It’s also interesting to see the relation between the interest of oil companies and undemocratic and corrupt regimes in the Middle East, and the alleged part industrialised countries play in all this. Another thing which is done quite nicely is how the movie makes it clear that everyone just knows a small part of the ‘big picture’, yet has to act nevertheless.

On the bad side, some scenes were useless and only made the story more complicated without advancing the plot. These scenes also didn’t add any more background to the characters, even though I guess that was the reason for including them in the first place. Speaking about characters, their background felt rather thin, and their motives a bit superficial. This shows especially in the case of the young Pakistani man who becomes a terrorist.

To me, it feels as if the movie succeeds at making it clear what point the director wishes to express, yet fails to back up his message with more background and comprehensible information. Oh, and people in Iran speak Persian, not Arabic. Gosh!


From fiction to reality: Foreign Affairs

I’m a subscriber to Foreign Affairs, in my opinion one of the most insightful magazines out there. Its current issue (May/June 2006) features some excellent articles again. I haven’t read everything yet, but would like to use this opportunity to direct your attention to two outstanding contributions:

This issue’s main article - Saddam’s Delusions: The View From the Inside - by Kevin Woods, James Lacey, and Williamson Murray provides an interesting insight into the former Iraqi government. It shows how Saddam lived in a self-constructed world of lies and illusions, caused by his own delusion of grandeur and incompetence; most of his inner circle was only chosen by tribe and kinship, and the few competent people in the higher command staff were too afraid to speak their minds. Thus it comes as no surprise to learn that Saddam’s main goal was not to counter the US-led invasion, but rather to avoid them and be prepared to strike against inner unrest. The article can be read online at the Foreign Affairs website, and is available in its full length.

Another interesting article is The New Middle Ages by John Rapley. The 500 words preview over at Foreign Affairs’ website only gives an inadequate introduction to the article’s main thesis, which follows the development of the role of states and national sovereignty through the emergence of capitalism and trade to the current globalised economy. Two following two small excerpts do a good job at describing the main notion:

The shift toward knowledge-intensive products, reductions in the transport costs of both goods and labor, and the rapid acceleration of technological change have loosened the state’s hold on its traditional resource base.

Because neoliberal policies have done more to free the movement of capital and goods and services than to reduce barriers to human migration, the balance of negotiating power has shifted in favour of the managers of multinational or even global firms.

Source: ‘The New Middle Ages’ by John Rapley. Foreign Affairs, May/June 2006, Page 101.

While hardly saying anything new at frist glance, the article offers an interesting look at the history, causes and effects of the global world order, and its impact on the shift of power away from modern states.

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